It’s not going to beat me I’m going to beat it.
Hey everyone, I hope you’re all well and good and have had an amazing weekend.
My psychosis is really playing up at the minute, and I don’t like going to sleep at night as that’s when it’s worse.
My voices are coming, while I am sleeping now, never had that before.
About two months ago, you might remember me saying I had an appointment to see the mental health nurse about getting a meds review, well on the 25th of this month, when I was younger, I would of never asked for help at all to get this sorted.
But I have asked this time for help, and I’m proud of myself.
I went to see my grandad on Saturday with my sister. My anxiety was through the roof. I feel like I should be still looking after him, but I just couldn’t cope with it anymore. I feel guilty that he’s in a home, but I’m also grateful that he gets the 24 hour care that he needs. I’m sure some of you may relate, why do we think it’s our responsibility to do the looking after, when it’s so clear we are the ones who need it. But still, there’s that guilt that we carry.
So that’s me for today, it’s a short one, but it’s just me telling you how I’m doing, struggling but still fighting.
Thank you for reading. Please drop a comment, and I’ll get back to you.
Have a great week ahead everyone.
It’s not going to beat me I’m going to beat it.
2 Responses
Proud of you mate! You are doing much better than you think
Keep up the hard work and keep fighting
Your positive outlook and strength you share will make such a difference in so many peoples life
Thank you
Dear John
Ways forward appear to people in different ways.
I am glad you are seeking help for the “voices” you hear. I call mine intrusive thoughts, and manage them well.
Psychosis is an energy. Too much can make me random. Or is it just more urgent? Appearing to be random.
I know this is your post, however, if I relate to me I am not assuming too much about you.
I also feel that guilt can be associated with grief. Although they are separate.
It is not for me to establish who is guilty or why. I do not feel guilty. I feel grief though, sometimes worse than others.
KR
David